A Venting confession
I am transgender. 17 year old female to male. I have felt this way my entire life, from my youngest memories as a child I knew that I was in born in the wrong body. I used to pray and wish for God to change me. I cried myself to sleep every night, and sometimes I still do. I am good looking and am told that all the time. I am only 5'1" male in a female's body. My voice is my vice. I feel like as soon as I open my mouth it will turn everyone away. I feel like a liar when I tell people I am a male, but I am? Aren't I? My mom tells me I'm not. No matter the drugs or the hormones. I am just a confused lesbian. It hurts me. I cut a lot, and do a lot of drugs to escape. Mostly weed and pills. I can't handle reality and I have slowly given up on my life. My mother is an alcoholic drug addict and my father is very sick. He just had a tumor removed too. My family doesn't support or care for me which is another reason why I have given up. I am online a lot lately, since me being homeless for four years due to my fathers illnesses and financial problems..I lost touch with all of my friends. I have no one now. Just me, the computer and my weed. I talk to people only when I need drugs or am needing a way out of my house because my mother is starting to hit me again. I don't know what to do and if anyone who is going through the same shit message me at infearandjake AIM. Thanks.
Anonymous
A "male lesbian"? Really, Anonymous? Gtfo.
Anonymous
I too am a male lesbian. It's tough for us guys out there that are gay for women. We gotta stick together.
Anonymous
Hi... you're not alone. There are many TG people in the world. Find a forum that is respectable and seek support there (first link if you google transgender forums). I hope to see you there someday. I'll look for you as infearandjake...