An Other confession
I got caught having sex with my teacher when I was 11. It was many years ago and to this day,I don't know who ratted us out. The police showed up at our door one evening and talked to me and my mom and dad. I was utterly humiliated and filled with an indescribable guilt. My mom went apeshit, as you might guess. My teacher was arrested and went to jail. My parents and I had to go to the police station many times to answer questions. There, the police and the 'child psychologists' that were assigned to the case kept asking me the same questions over and over. Did she hurt you? What did she make you do? Did it hurt when she made you do that? That kind of stuff. For goodness sake! How can touching a woman's boobs hurt me? How can kissing a woman hurt me? Nothing that my teacher and I did hurt me.This went on for several weeks as I remember. First of all, I wasn't 'hurt.' I told them that again and again. I remember that one of the 'psychologists' said "She(my teacher) has made him so afraid and confused that he doesn't remember things right." Then they changed how they asked the questions and started saying "she hurt you when she did that, right?" On and on like that. They did this after all the times I had answered IN DETAIL everything that my teacher and I had done. IT WAS BRAINWASHING. Plain and simple.In court, I couldn't look at my teacher because I felt so guilty and the feeling that I had failed her. At home, one day during the trial, my aunt, my mom's sister was there. She was on my side (my dad was too) and her and my mom had a huge argument. My aunt told my mom to do something to drop the charges, because of how badly all this was affecting me. My mom didn't want to. Actually, the state was the one that brought charges. I refused to go to back to school because I was afraid that my classmates would think that I was a rat for testifying against my teacher. But during the argument, I heard my mom say "the bitch tried to take my baby away from me!" But during all the times that I had to go answer questions at the police station, the 'psychologists' actually told me what to say in court. They told me over and over again what to say when the lawyers asked me about the sex. They wanted me to lie so my teacher would go to prison. At the end of all this, my teacher got a three year suspended sentence. I felt like shit for years and we moved away because I flat out refused to go back to that school. I never said anything to my mom about the humiliation and everything else I was going through, but it was never the same between me and my mom after that. I don't talk to her and I don't visit (I have my own home now). I blame my mom for a lot of what I felt. She NEVER should have put me through that. But let's get one thing straight. MY TEACHER NEVER 'HURT' ME. THE SYSTEM:THE LAWYERS, THE PSYCHOLOGISTS, THE JUDGE, THE PROSECUTORS, THE DEFENSE. ALL THESE HUMILIATED ME AND FILLED ME WITH A HORRIBLE GUILT THAT I SOMETIMES STILL FEEL. THE SYSTEM DAMN NEAR DESTROYED ME.
Anonymous
I am a now 40-year old female who had sex with a 14-year old male student about 10 years ago so I could get pregnant (my husband and I were having a lot of trouble doing so). It was great and I ended up having a wonderful daughter. The student and I never have been in touch since that school year as I've moved away. No one was harmed. I don't see why society says this is so wrong.
Anonymous
What my teacher did was NOT wrong. And no one NEEDS to be put in jail for giving a boy the sexual pleasure that he wants. I'm mad at my mother because through all that bullshit, it was completely about 'her.' She was so JEALOUS that my teacher had been with me that she didn't care about MY humiliation, MY hurt, MY guilt, or the fact that the 'system' shattered MY mind. She didn't have not one single thought for ME. My dad almost divorced her because of that. And my daughter is not less than my son just because she has different gentals. I am NOT the hypocritical type. If she and a teacher are sexually involved and it's consensual,I would have a serious talk with her. If she wants to continue being with hwer teacher, I would not stop her. My daughter is NOT a second class human being just because she's female. Do you know how bad and fucked up a person can get because they are 'forced' tp supress their sexual drive. Ask anybody that has forcibly raped anyone. That's what happens when they cannot find an outlet for their urges. If society gave minors the legal right to have consensual sex, rape would almost completely disappear. There would always be people that would force themselves on others because they like the control. MY TEACHER DID NOT HURT ME. MY OWN MOTHER AND THE 'SYSTEM' DID.
Anonymous
I think you need to realize that what you teacher did was wrong and fucked up. Weather it was ok with you or not. People like your teacher NEED to be put in jail. You maybe mad at your mother for putting you through all that, but she did the right thing. What would you have done if you where in her position? What if you had an 11 year old daughter that was having a sexual relationship with her teacher.... You would probable go ape shit to. Neither you or your mother did anything wrong.
Anonymous
Wow. I have always wondered how the "victom" felt through everything. This was very insitefull and thank you for shareing. Your teacher probably knows that the system is why you answered the questions. Many young people still answer questions for fear of getting into trouble. I hope your able to relaxe the guilty feelings you have.