A Sex confession

I have been looking for this becos I had the same experience at that age though mine started with female friends when we act play of mum and dad and it got worse when a big relative male forced me to come inside and sleep while I was playing with my friends outside I did,nt want to but he insisted so I had to pretend as if I was sleeping and I remember him putting his dick in my virgina while carrying me on his laps,another male relative who was quite older spent holidays with us and he had sex with me can't remember how it started but we were both doing it,I had a female cousin whom we both do it together too, I lived with my grandma and she travelled for sometime and left me with a family friend who had a son of my age I remembered us seeing magzine with sex pictures and we decided to go to the back of the house to do what we saw apparently the boy,s elder brother saw us and teased us that he saw us doing what was in the magzine though we both denied we were,nt doing anything,I once stayed in the boy's elder brothers friends house after school while waiting for those that i stayed with to come back home I slept off though it was,nt a deep sleep and the elder brother's friend diped his dick inside me while carrying me on his laps just like my big relative did at the beggining of my story.. I later traveled to where my grandma was and it continued again with my male cousin who was my agemate he does the same thing to his other cousin too so I felt its all normal since have known done it before too, the kids arround my area then though majorly females were also having sex too so I joined in along with my other female cousins though it was a secret within all of us but I remembered being caught once with my female cousin by a neighbour and we were both punished for lieing half naked on ourselves,finally I was told by one of my female friends whom we have sex together that there was a boy arround who does the same too so I wanted to confirm what I was told so locked myself in a room with the boy and we both had it though I was older than the boy about a year or two years older my younger brother whom I was three years older. Than was knocking the door so that he could see what I was doing with his friend I knew it wasn't right for me to open the door because he is my brother from the same mother so I did not but whether he knew what was happening inside or not I never knew but I realised I had done something wrong at that moment and I promised myself never to do such again untill am matured. As at then I was already 7 years old and ofcause puberty came in and I tried to compose myself to the changes and truely I never had sex again untill I was 19yrs old with my first boyfriend but I never knew I wouldn't be a virgin because with all those sex incident I can,t remember ever feeling pain or seeing blood so supposed I was still a virgin untill after we had sex and he asked me why I was,nt virgin I had to tell him of the first incident with my big relative so I said I was sexually harassed by a relative when I was young! After that I tried to break up with him because he was the first person I would tell that and I did not. Want him to take me for granted because I was looking like a good girl he did not agree to the breakup and he promised to standby me though we later had to breakup after so many years with the relationship! And presently I have another boyfriend who wants to get married to me and he wants every detail of my past and present though I have shared some of this with him but I would be showing him this aswell so that he knows it all!! I HOPE I HAVE NOT BORED you with my comment and my true life experience but the truth is I have lived. A very awefull life that has been hunting me about even uptill now untill I found this site and I decided to comment on your post though I would paste it as a confession too really I have lived a life full of guilt,fear,secrets, aggresion,unfriendly(though working on that) I just pray God will deliver me and give me a peacefull mind and life to live after presently I am crying because I owe my virginity to no one!!!am presently age 22!

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