I was sexually abuse when I was yonger, so I was never touched in a "nice" way. I also have never wanted to show anyone my naked body before. I have masterbated as long as I can remember, and my life has all been sexual.
I have recently been Adopted, I consider this woman to be my mother now. I really want to feel close to her, and I trust her alot. I want to get comfortable with her so I can lay in bed naked with her. I don't want to do anything Sexual, or for it to be sexual at all. I just want some skin to skin contact. I have never had that before. I also want to suck on her breast if It is okay with her. I think this is really strange, and I'm embarrassed to ask her. Any mothers out there that think this would be okay? Or should I just let the thought stay in my mind and not act on it. Please help me! P.s. I am an 18 year old Female. Who is STRAIGHT!