I am 14 years old, and am the smart one, the mature one, in my group of friends, and yet I have given my boyfriend 3 blowjobs. Considering my generation, it doesn't seem to be a big deal. I'm honestly frustrated, though, because I'm bisexual, and I want to try things with a girl so much, and my boyfriend makes a point to tell me he is never going to break up with me, and he never wants to date another person. We have been together 8 months, and I do love him, but I want to experiment! And to add to my desires, he wants me to go to the "dyke march" (not even kidding, that's what it is called) with him and his family this weekend (they're big supporters- his sister is also bi), where there will be so many LGBT people, and I know I am going to have to practically cling to his side so I'm not tempted to flirt and smile and honestly enjoy myself. I can't even tell him any of this without feeling super guilty, or making him feel guilty. I'm not really sure why I bothered posting this. I guess it just felt necessary to ramble.