Well first off, i am a 12 year old girl. I have been really depressed for the past 2 years about these same reasons and things i'm about to tell you right now.
I mean, sometimes i feel like, i'm biosexual. You know, i like guys, but sometimes...... i don't know. People say i'm young and i'm curious but, i don't know.
I'm a christian. So, i am afraid that i will go to hell. Like i said, i'm only 12. I can't even tell my parents. Another thing is that, well please don't think i'm weird but,
i watch porn. And play sexual or porn games. I feel terrible. I don't know whats wrong with me when i do it. I always feel like i'm a loser and a freak because of what i do.
And, some of the videos i watch are rape videos. I cry all the time because, i feel so bad. I feel that i'm a sick person. I know you guys may feel that too but, please tell me...Is this normal.
Please, i've been crying about it for 2hours. Help me. I'm begging you. I also masterbate sometimes. And...think of people raping me....i know i sound weird, but please tell me if this is normal.
First off, you are TWELVE. When I was twelve I was into motherfucking Pokemon, not porn. Second, since when are people BIOsexual. Clearly it's BIsexual. This isn't nuclear reactors we are dealing with here. Third, YOU ARE MOTHERFUCKING T W E L V E. Stop it. It isn't normal. You are going to hurt yourself, physically and probably physiologically. I suggest you just wait and play some Mario Kart or something.
by: Anonymous
Don't hate yourself for it. I was just like you around 13. (I'm 18 now-- a girl). I was raised in a Christian family and am still a Christian but a bit more open-minded then most Christians. And yet still at this age I do the same thing that I did back then. I don't know why I do it but at least you know that you're not alone. It's confusing but it's normal to have sexual desires and such. I don't understand my obsession with porn even rape porn and I'm not sure if I'm bisexual or not, but either way God's not going to send you to Hell for it. At least, the God I know won't. You're not doing anything bad. Don't let it get you down. God made us all for a different purpose, and he made you too. So you're like this for a reason. "Everything happens for a reason". :)
by: Anonymous
This is normal and it is okay to be bi! If God thought it was bad to be who you are we would all be going to hell. I had something like that when I was 11, I watched porn and played porn games, you get addicted and it is so hard to stop. You're not a freak because the people who are the freaks are the ones who sleep with family... I know it is hard to hear people say ' oh i know how you feel' cause they don't. I was depressed for the same reasons but I'm not saying I am in your situation. Hope I helped! Avril x'
by: Anonymous