I gave my best friend a blow job and it's ruining our friendship...

 
I feel a lot of things right now. For one, I'm disappointed in myself (I think). I'm in college and rooming with my best friend. His name is Josh. I've known him for 11 years and we've always gotten along really well (yes, I'm male). Anyway, I made a mistake the other day that I'm really struggling with. We were drinking some beers, I got really drunk after about 6 or 7 of them. Someone came over, someone he knows but hasn't for very long. Anyway, after about five minutes he pulled out some cocaine. I'd never done cocaine before. It cleared up the drunken haze I was feeling. We all did it, but I seemed to like it the most (or it's possible I just had the hardest time controlling my enthusiasm). The guy who brought it over left after about an hour, and then it was just the two of us. We got to talking about a lot of different things, and eventually the conversation turned to sex. Josh has a girlfriend (has never had a hard time with girls) and is definitely an attractive guy. I don't have a girlfriend and have struggled with this for years. It's not that I'm not attractive (I'm not Brad Pitt) but I'm surely more shy than he is. I've only had a few girlfriends in my life, and it's been a long time since the last one. Anyway, I don't really know how else to say this other than to say it: the coke made me really horny. I don't know how it happened (God, I'm so ashamed), but before long I started asking him a lot of personal questions about how often he had sex, who he had it with, if he got a lot of blow jobs, for one. Then he asked me, "Why, you wanna give me one or something?" Before I knew what I was doing, impulsively, I told him I would. He said, "Whoa, I was just kidding dude!" but somehow, a minute or so later I was undoing his belt. And I did it. The whole thing lasted about five minutes. Neither one of us is gay. But for whatever reason, he let me go through with the act. While I was doing it I couldn't believe it, but I kept at it. I honestly had fun doing it; he was rock hard and it made me happy to know that I was helping someone feel good. I finished it (meaning I brought him to orgasm). He came in my mouth, I swallowed (that was kind of different), no mess at all. He then zipped up without saying anything. Since then he hasn't said a word to me. After he came, he basically disappeared, and every time I've seen him since he's had a cold look on his face, not a word. What did I do so wrong? I mean, I know I performed oral sex on another man, but that's not immoral. I'm not gay, but I guess the fact that I broke my own "rule book" (if that makes sense) by doing this extreme thing is really bothering me. Also, I made a really stupid choice indulging in that drug; if I hadn't done that, none of this would have happened. What do I do now? Should I try to talk to him? Should I leave it for time to heal? I'm just at a loss, and really down on myself. Things are different between us now, and there's no going back in time to fix this. Have I ruined our friendship? Oh God, I feel terrible. I guess it's only natural, considering how stupid I was. If anyone has any advice, I'd be so grateful. Thanks for reading this.
A Sex confession by: Anonymous
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    I was reading this because I just did this to my straight guy friend earlier. I'm gay and he's not, good thing about it is he knows I am gay and told me he just wanted to try new things fir his girlfriend has been out for two weeks now. He let me do it while he watched straight porn. We just laughed about it after. I know he's not gay but he repetitively told me he enjoyed it.

    by: Anonymous

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    When I was a kid about 11 my next door who was older than me about 13 . I was young and curious he showed me his cock and started to jack off then he told me if I sucked his cock he would suck mine.needless to say I got on my knees and sucked his dick. When it was his turn to suck mine he told me too suck his some more so I did until he came in my mouth I spit it out I didn't know what the hell it was. So that was my first sexual experience, I'm not gay have a wife and kids been married 16 years our sex life is awesome ,and from time to time I think of sucking that guy off and I get off. But I'm not gay

    by: Anonymous

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    First, don't put all responsibility on you. It's not like if you had r*** him or something. There was some consent from what I can read. He also feel ashamed after what happened. I think you guys need to talk and state that none of you are gays ( nothing wrong with it, but why being perhaps perceived as something you guys are not ( from what I read). If that is what causes the awkwardness, then a clarification is necessary. Don't even bother to blame each other. You both did! He might be acting that way cause he don't want to repeat this. After, you guys should separate for a while. It's only a matter of time! He has been your friend for long time.

    by: Anonymous

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    I wish I had a friend like you!!! Howdy!!! Well, for one this is the stuff that goes with college life. Experimentation. Don't be so worried about it ...let it go. You did nothing wrong but if your gonna indulge in drugs and drink this is the stuff that happens. Light up. Let us know what happens. Peace out.

    by: Anonymous

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    Dude your gay bro,sorry to burst your bubble,bi atleast. get over it,it takes 2 to tango,dont blame the cock,tonsw of people do it,and don't wind up with a cock stuffed down there throat.i performed oral sex on a friend once,shit happens.move on,as far as him,he'll cum around.

    by: Anonymous

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    OP is a faggot. It's obligatory. But you're not gay. Dude... there are bits and pieces of each comment that are true (except the homophobes who are trolling). 1. i know you're straight, but that really makes no difference to the issue. it's completely natural to a) get horny on drugs, and b) want to experience sex acts with the same gender. 2. yes, you screwed up. Sex with friends is always going to be risky, whether it's dudes or chicks, but don't blame the drugs. Understand that it was your choice because you were curious. simple. 3. your buddy blames you for the fact that he did something 'gay'. he doesn't want to have to deal with the fact that he chose to do it. I don't think you should talk to him about it further than saying: "we did it, it was a mistake, sorry". 4. it will probably take him a long time to get over it, but he will, although your relationship with him will always be different. 5. A few years from now, you're going to suck another cock, and probably not be bothered by it in the least. Just choose more carefully.

    by: Anonymous

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    Don't worry he will be talking to you real soon because he knows you liked sucking his cock and will when ever he lets you from now on. Your status has changed from being his friend to becoming his little bitch and he will treat you like one , He doesn't have to be friendly and talk to you except to tell you he wants you to do it again .Since he is just getting his cock sucked it doesn't make him gay but yu are a cock sucker and a male and that means that you are the gay one but don't worry you like t suck cock and will be rewarded for doing a good job

    by: Anonymous

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    OP is a fucking faggot --> so much beta-try in this thread ><

    by: Anonymous

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    I think that your friend probably feels as conflicted as you do. He probably thinks what he let you do was wrong but he also enjoyed it. And no, it is not gay that you gave him a blowjob, it's fine my straight guy friends have blown me before and luckily it hasn't changed anything. I would suggest talking to him about it and tell him that you regret doing the coke good luck mate

    by: Anonymous

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    Dam same thing happened to me Except i was high af and gone...

    by: Anonymous

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    You fucking gay. Straight men don't give blowjobs. Admit it. You gay and will probably do it again. Sick.

    by: Anonymous

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    WTF is wrong with you? This man has done nothing to deserve just a negative treatment from you. If anyone deserves this treatment it would be YOU for thinking that you have the right to insult people. You are only making yourself feel better about the wrongs YOU have done by insult others for their flaws. Heck, if u want someone to insult to make yourself feel better, Insult me! I'll give u a reason. I am a brony and i am about to give MY best friend a blowjob. We both see nothing wrong with this (yes i am a man). In two weeks it will happen. I have been curious about it for a while. So go ahead. Insult ME. Call me all kinds of derogatory names and terms. I think i have heard all of them by now. And this man who wrote this story has done nothing wrong that all of us havent done in our life. Now, for u sir that i am responding. STFU.

    by: Anonymous

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    Homophobic cunt.

    by: Anonymous

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    Its fine ive wanted to give a blowjob to a guy (and haven't) nor have I ever had one :/ so I guess I have no authority to comment but just cause you blew a guy 1+ times doesn't mean your gay: your high and drunk

    by: Anonymous

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    Right, ignore this comment. It's hateful and ignorant.

    by: Anonymous

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    yeah...........he definitely wants more of what you gave him. start sending him emails of pix showing guys blowing guys and let nature take its course. i think youll have that sweet meat back in your mouth before the end of the week. you two are gonna be even better friends than you were. so get ready for the best sex and the most sex of your entire life. eventually you wont be able to count all the hot loads hes gonna be pumping down your sweet throat.

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    I'm not sure when this confession was posted. What I got from reading the post is that your friend seemed as if he was enjoying the act as well. If he was in the right mind and a true friend who didn't want it he would have told you to stop doing the act 5 secs in. You are both the blame for continuing, so your friendship may be awkward but surely it will solve itself over time if you really are good mates... I would try talking to him apologizing first for what you did see how he responds and if he apologizes too. If he apologises he's genuinely sorry for letting you go through with it and regrets it himself as true mates don't let you do stuff you don't want to and if he doesn't apologise then he enjoyed it but blames you for coming onto him. But YOU haven't ruined the friendship as I think it swings both ways

    by: Alexandra

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    Everyone experiments with the same sex. He could have turned it down...but he didn't so...he shouldn't really feel awkward...or maybe he's questioning his sexuality?

    by: Anonymous

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    he was high and wants fun. wait some time, until the awkard time pass. then talk to him

    by: Anonymous

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    You're gay..no straight guy blows anyone

    by: Anonymous

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    If you were truly friends before the incident, you've ruined nothing. Nothing. If you're sorry, tell him that, tell him you're still his friend, and tell him that you're willing to either talk about what happened, or not talk about what happened -- leave that entirely up to him -- but tell him you want to resume the friendship (if, course, that is true) as it existed beforehand. Then . . . leave him alone to digest your apology and decide what he wants to do. I obviously can't know what's in his head, but if I had to guess, I would guess (judging by his behavior) that your friend enjoyed the work you did on him MUCH MUCH MUCH more than he's willing to admit to you or to anyone else, or even to himself: I think he wants you. I think he wants you BAD, and I think that desire is eating at him, trying to deny it, trying to hide it, trying to undo it, trying to relive it, trying not to want more. "Conflicted" is a word that gets overused, but I bet that's what he is. That's just my two cents, but either way (i.e., whether or not he wants more with you), my recommendation stands. Good luck to you, my good friend.

    by: Anonymous

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    i think this guy is right. if you brought your buddy to such a big orgasm in 5 minutes its because he was loving what you were doing to him. i agree: i think he wants more.

    by: Anonymous

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