I write to inmates, who vary in ages 24-39.
I'm 16. They're fine with writing me, and they're all extrememly important in my life, as I am in theirs.
I write to 6, all of them men.
I've fallen crazy in love with one of them, the oldest one.
They all make me happy, but he brings out a passion in me that no one--not even my ex fiancé brought out in me.
He's fallen in love with me as well.
And no, he's not using me, none of them are. Actually they've all warned me about writing others in prison. I know these men pretty well, but only truely trust 2 of them.
Anyways, the inmate I love, let's call him Jay, wants to get his probation and program transferred to my state in about a year, when he's able to.
He's not incarcerated for anything bad like murder or drugs, but he had relations with a young lady under 18. Anyways, I want to be with him, but he's the oldest man I've ever been with, not by much but still, it makes me a little weary bout it. And what my parents will think. We can't physically be together until I'm 18, because of his probation rules.
I didn't realize how much I'd fallen for him until recently, my father found out about our correspondence and I had to cease contact with all of my inmates.
It's painful to be away from them, especially Jay. However I'm workibg on getting a P.O. box soon.
And I'm also worried about the future. I want to go into a professional type job, and I'm worried that having my husband (if we decide to wed) registered as a sex offender will affect my life job wise.
I don't really know what to do.
I do know though, that I'm not going to leave him. Because I really do love him and he's been hurt so much I'm so happy I'm able to make him happy.
I just...his absence is killing me.
And I miss all of my inmates, They mean the world to me...