When I was single, around 19 or 20, I had a thing for a girl at church. She was around 24 or 25 and at the time she was without a whole lot of romantic prospects. I fell pretty hard for her, got all infatuated, and eventually told her how I felt. I got friendzoned. Fast forward a little bit, I ended up dating and marrying her cousin who has been a loving, caring, and all around great wife. The problem is I can't get my wife's cousin (the girl I was infatuated with before getting married) off my mind. I still love that woman. It makes it all the worse around holidays when I see her. There's just a small part of me that says, "I wanted to marry you instead but settled on marrying your cousin." It's so wrong, but I really want to have a relationship with her too now. I want her so bad. I wanted and still want to be hers.