When my wife and I first got married, we had talked about past partners and I was shocked to hear that she had been with a black man. Like I said, I was shocked and my reaction was obvious. She quickly told me that it was only once and that she felt weird doing it and even stopped halfway through. A few years later she told me that she had in fact had sex with two different black guys. She then told me that a friend of hers had a fantasy involving a group of black men raping her, I think she told me this to get the "heat" off of herself. For a while I was pretty shocked, that she had kept this from me, that she felt that she couldn't tell me the truth. Since she failed to tell me the truth, I began imagining her having wild sex with black men, I mean like porn star sex. I couldn't stop thinking about my wife doing these things and it made me crazy. But then it started to turn me on, thinking about her sucking those men and getting f*****. I could imagine her screaming in ecstasy and just having a great time. It really began to turn me on. I asked her if she thought black men were attractive, and she said no. I assured her that I was ok with whatever she liked and wanted to be open and honest with her. She finally told me that she thought some black guys were cute. We began to have an open discussion about fantasies and I told her that it turned me on thinking about her with her past lovers. She looked at me like I was crazy. I asked her if I got her a black d**** if she would use it, and she said she didn't know. So I bought her a nice sized black d****. We have used it a couple of times, but she doesn't really get into it. I don't know if she is embarrassed or what but seeing her suck and f*** that d**** is a huge fantasy of mine now. I cant stop thinking about her sucking and f****** black c***, and believe me I have tried. I have gone months without bringing it up, but I think about it every single day. I wish she would play more with me and get into this fantasy because I don't think it is going away anytime soon. She says it hurts, but sometimes during sex I will insert two fingers in her and then my p**** and she really likes it. And that is much thicker than the d**** I got for her. I think she is paranoid that I am trying to bust her for having a good time or something. I have tried to tell her that it just really turns me on. Oh well, maybe one day when my p**** no longer works she will want the d**** more often.