I am bipolar young woman, diagnosed at 14. Long story short, I moved in the last month and now have no health insurance. I quit buying my medicine because I didn’t want to buy it anymore.
My boyfriend and I took a vacation to Las Vegas last week for 5 days. I had started to get really irritable, shitty, and bitchy due to not being on the meds anymore. For no reason.
One night, we went out to a few night clubs. We had ALOT to drink. We got back to our hotel room, I ended up going through his phone and found a few texts he and his friends wrote saying about how rude I was being. Nothing horrible, just stating facts I guess. I found a reason to get upset, and I beat him up. When he held my hands back to keep me from hitting him, I head butted him. I bruised his eyes, left bruises and injuries on his cheeks, and split his lips.
This has never happened before. I feel so awful.
I feel so fucking horrible. He is such a wonderful man and treats me like a queen. I am trying to make up for it. I’m still not on medicine (we can’t really afford it) and I’m not going to drink anymore. I’m going to a priest at my church to seek counseling.
I love him dearly and I want to make it up to him, I don’t know how! please dear God forgive me.