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was it rape?
I was in a relationship for four years. We broke up but decided to try to remain friends. One night we went out with a group of mutual friends. My ex boyfriend got really drunk and went home early, leaving me with his friend, Matt. I thought if he trusted Matt it would be fine. So Matt and I went to look for a party. I met some friends but we lost them along the way. Next thing I knew Matt had hailed a cab and was telling me to come back to his place. I was very dubious but in my drunken state decided to go for it, don't know why. Matt had recently split up with his girlfriend of 8 years and wanted to talk about it. So we got back to his place, drank a little more, then he gave me an ecstacy tablet and I took it. I had taken e many times before but it hadn't affected me as strongly as this time. I began to hallucinate and was confused about where I was. So of course he started coming on to me. I resisted telling him I didnt want to and I couldnt do it to my ex. I wasnt attracted to him at all and my instincts were saying no! but I couldnt stop him. He kept touching me and I felt like there was no point in trying to fight it, it was going to happen anyway. I felt absolutely nothing, just cold and used.
Now of course I bitterly regret what happened. Matt and my ex are no longer friends. When I saw our mutual friends afterwards they looked at me with disgust and wouldnt speak to me and yet continue to talk to him. I wanted to tell them what really happened but I still feel like its basically my fault. I shouldnt have gone back to his place and I shouldnt have taken the e tablet. But I did. I felt really depressed afterwards and ending up leaving the country because I couldnt stand the reminders of what I had done. I'm confused whether it can be considered rape as in the beginning I kept saying no but then he wore me down and I consented. I'd appreciate your thoughts. Thank you.
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uh yeah that is rape in multiple ways, it's considered rape if you didn't want it and it's considered rape if you are under the influence.
What really happened was you had s** and regret it. It was not rape and don't you dare blame it on any tablet or drink. Just be quiet about it and go on with your life.
Sounds a bit like a date rape situation. Dude got you drunk and gave you x he knew exactly what the outcome would be.
I think it was more like non-consensual s**. There was no violence or damaging physical assault, or a weapon. But issuing a reality alternating drug to lower your resistance does get covered by some laws. Rape? Perhaps that is the correct term in this situation.
Damn thats really wild. Its crazy how people can really effect your way of life they just hear something and jus f***** run with it. As long as you know who you are you should be okay.