Im a f***** up individual

Im young, attractive, lesbian. people hire me to b there personal trainer. what they dont know is im extremely f***** up. for one i have a disorder called "trich", luckily its not too extreme u cant really tell. im in to my appearance way more than i should. i may even b narcissitic. american psycho minus the murder. people look at me and think damn shes lucky...she has a great life shes hot, she can get anybody she wants. but the problem is im waiting to snap. i dont know what could happen i just hope i get better rather than worse.