A crush on the s** shop girl
I went to Excitement Video (s** shop) a few days ago with my friend.... the cashier there was so hot. She has piercings too, which I like. This is the first real crush I've had for a female. I mean, I know I'm bisexual but I've never actually met a girl I really, REALLY wanted to date. I tried to smile at her but she immediately looked away. I don't know what to do. I keep thinking about her and how much I want to see her and get to know her. But how could I? What would I do? Go up and say "hey so, you wanna have lunch?" We don't even know each other. I don't know how old she is (I'm eighteen). And I rarely go to that place. The only reason I was there is because my friend had to get something for a bday present for her friend. She's my ride, too. How do I tell her "Hey, wanna go to the s** shop? I wanna check out that chick again."? This is pathetic. But I can't get that chick out of my head.
The worst part about this is I'm a pre-op transsexual. Who the f*** would ever date me? What if she's a lesbian? Pfft, not like I'm going to ask her out. I'm too much of a coward. Not like I'd know how to do it anyway. I've NEVER had a relationship, EVER. I would give anything to have somebody actually love me for me. God this is depressing. Why am I such aworthless piece of s***?