I might have an STD.....or HIV
I'm a virgin but at the end of my second semester in college, I gave Oral s** to a guy that lead me on. Days later, he cheated on me. That was the first time I did anything sexual in my life. 7 weeks later, I had a sore throat, fever, swollen tonsils with white stuff on them. The doctors said it was Mono and I was relieved. Then I read that HIV has Mono-like symptoms. I have been in denial since that happened,now have white patches and sores on my tongue.
People make mistakes right? Why should I have to DIE from mine? I'm not promiscuous or anything. I've learned my lesson. I promised God that I would have a higher Self-esteem and love myself if he could spare me this pain. I've already been depressed before this happened, this will make it worst. I don't want to do something I'll regret. I want to go to the doctors but I'm afraid of hearing the answer.
I WANT TO LIVE!