My fantasies...

I have been in a prosperous relationship with my dream guy for two years now. I moved to a new town during the summer before I turned 16. I was going to be a junior that fall at the local high school, where I knew nobody. I was then still emotionally recovery from a traumatic break up I had from a year before with a guy I dated for only 6 or 7 months. I was only 14 when we started dating...and he was 17 going on 18 that summer. He told me we'd get married...and he'd love me unconditionally...and he ended our relationship because I relied on him too much emotionally and that he "could not love." So, it wasn't until the first day of my junior year did I lay eyes on the guy I'd be chasing for the next 4 and a half months. I love everything about him...I would say I had fallen under his spell not two weeks into the school year. He was lovely. He was the first person I befriended that year... I met all of his friends and we hung out several times....eventually we would start calling each other on the phone, and he would come to my house to work on school projects with me. We had more than a few classes together and were interested in similar things. I eventually mustered up the courage to ask him out, and he finally accepted 2 weeks after that. We have learned a lot about each other since then...and I am not as ashamed as I would be about the following fantasies, simply because he confided in me that he fantasizes about similar things, but, nonetheless, we are still very much in love...

1.) On of the managers at my workplace, who quit a couple months ago, used to flirt with me all the time. At first, I didn't really respond to it...but after a while, I began to become attracted to him. I remember this one night when it was just him and me closing the store...there was so much sexual tension between us, I just wanted to kiss him right there in the back room. It was so cold because we were standing by the dairy cooler, and I just wanted to press up against him for warmth... We used to talk about our relationships, and ask what we liked to do in bed. It just made me feel even closer to him... Well, after he left, I forgot about him for a while, until I ran across his profile online and messaged him, asking how he was doing. He responded several days later...and ever since then, I haven't been able to quit thinking about him. Last night all I could think about was being in bed with him. I felt guilty later on in the night about fantasizing about having s** with him...but I figured it is normal to have feelings like that. I was just so close to sending him another message telling him about how I felt...but I'm glad I didn't.


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  • I believe that teenagers and Adults have different definitions of love. Love, is defined by the person. Not a dictionary.
    And for adults who think US teenagers aren't ready then consider this.
    I've been with my girlfriend for 3 years and counting. I would do anything for her, she opened my eyes to all sorts of things. When I met her its like the world had a new color mixed into it.
    I walked 21 miles To her house, just to hug her when she was crying. Then I walked BACK to my house, 21 miles back to go to school.
    We all have our own love definition. Love is what and who can make us happy. Not some emotionless definition in Websters.
    We all have different fantasy's and you cannot CHANGE that. Even IF you love someone.
    Oh, by the way, I'm 16.

  • Hm.. You're not in love with anyone. When you're in love. You love ONE person and no one else. You're willing to spend the rest of your life with that person, and you wont be thinking about having s** with other people.
    You're not ready for any of that relationship stuff.

  • You're not close to being ready for a real relationship. Stop falling madly in love with every dude who looks at you. It's real immature.

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