S** Buddies Doesn't Cut It... Apparently
I wanted him to want me for more than just s**, but when he didn't try to get me to do anything this weekend I suddenly feel like I'm undesirable. I feel stupid and idiotic because I know that he knew I was sick and he probably was just trying to be nice but something about it bothers me. I wish he didn't like me and I wish he didn't give me cute pet names. In the end what we have is purely physical so being nice and considerate isn't helping me stay detached. oh. and did I mention I have a HUGE crush on one of his best friends and hooked up with him? yeah. this is overly complicated and I just can't deal with it anymore.