I met a guy last month during a weekend trip. I'm a minor, but I knew I only had the weekend with him, so I decided to lie about my age. I figured it wouldn't be a problem; we would have our fun and then go our separate ways, and he would never know the difference. But somehow, we've kept in touch. He knows my age now, and that hasn't deterred him; he knows I live hours away and that doesn't stop him either. I'm not dumb enough to think he's in love with me or anything, but how do I explain to him that I'm not some teenage w**** after I was so quick to suck his d*** in the hotel stairwell? How can I be responsible and tell him I don't want to lose my virginity yet when I do?
I don't want to be a stupid kid who starts having s** in high school, even if most kids are. But what I think and what I do are contradicting each other right now.