I've been using S** to feel less lonely.
Yesterday a friend helped me realize that I have totally lost myself, and have become the girl that I never wanted to be.
I realized that I have been portraying myself as the girl that is "Down to F***" and nothing else. And that is exactly what I've been getting.
I've had s** with three guys in May. I was not in a relationship with any of them. And after every time I was left feeling empty and even more lonely than before. And none of them wanted a relationship... because I am the girl to f***, and nothing else. And it is all my fault.
I am trying not to hate myself for this.