Im a terrible person. Here's Why. I wished to be raped again.
My name is Arena. I was 9 when I was first molested. Then at age 11 I was raped by a strange man. He was the janitor at my school. I never spoke of it. Then at age 15 I was once again raped at a bon fire after a football game by 3 football players. One was my boyfriend. After they told the whole school, I was kicked off the cheer squad and ASAP was put into a "special needs" school. Where people just like me went to school. Whatever. Anyways... Now im 18 And I have a new life for me. No raping is happening anymore. But in the back of my mind I can sence that my boyfriend wanted to rape me. So I dumped him. Now I work at a "S** Store" called "Ohhh La La;)" Its got all kinds of cool s** toys 'n' stuff. And I want to be raped. I dont know why. I just do. Just wanting to be tied up and having to keep it a "secret" just thrills me. Yes, Being raped was terrible, and very painful, dosent scare me anymore. I want it to happen again. I know thats terrible and sick and twisted. But Thats Why I Came Here. To Confess.