I want to rape my best friend.
I'm male 14 years old and my best friend is female 18 years old. We have known each other for about about 10 years now. amazingly she still come's to my house every week to stay for the weekend and she actually plans on moving in with me soon.
Now I know what your thinking " wow you lucky f****** b**** !!!" well your wrong. The reason? Everyone in my family is a Christian but me I pretend to be a Christian but I'm not. Sadly my best friend is a Christian to so she doesn't believe in having s** until she's married and the same is supposed to go for me.
But I hate that f****** s***!!! It ruined my life ever since I was 11 years old all I could think about is s**!!! And I couldn't do much about it. So really there was only one thing to do. So it was a good thing that I had my own computer and my own room by the time I was 11. Because Ive been j********** to p*** everyday for the last 3 years at least 5 or 10 times a day.
It used to help for a long time but for the last year or so it really doesn't help anymore. Ive seen so much f****** p*** it takes me like 5 hours just to get hard now and like another 5 hours just to c**. So p*** doesn't do s*** anymore. Right now I have no life and I try to avoid having anymore friends because I don't want them to get sucked into my stupid f****** religion.
I'm to shy to talk to girls and even if I wasn't I wouldn't want my girlfriend to meet my family because I hate them so f****** much. So again I say I have no life right now I just sit in my room all day trying to j******* to p***.
Witch brings me to the title of this confession. I think my best friend is really f****** hot I want to rape her so bad I sware I'm going to f****** just rape her to death one of these days I know this sounds really f***** up but I really don't have much to live for at this point I mean so what as soon as I rape her my life would be over I don't really give a s***.
I hate my life I wish everyone in my family wasn't a Christian and I wish my best friend wasn't and Christian either. If we weren't Christians I would be open to talking about s** with my family and my best friend and they wouldn't mind. Plus I wouldn't have had to spend the last 3 years of my life just j********** to p*** all the f****** time.
Really the only thing holding me back is pretending to be a Christian. If I was never in a Christian family I would have probably had s** by the time I was 12 years old and I wouldn't be thinking of a way to have s** with someone for the last 3 years well I give up ok I'm not going to wait like another 10 years or some stupid s*** just to spend time with some chick I dont even care about to get married and then finally have f****** s** for the first time in my life after wanting it for over 13 years.
So I'm just going to rape my best friend its as simple as that. Well whatever she's f****** hot It'll be worth it. And just so everyone knows I don't plan on going to jail. When I'm done with her I'm just going to kill myself. And This is not fake!!! I'm actually 14 and she is actually 18 and we are best friends I know it sounds unlikely but its true so If you think It's not then go f*** yourself because it is true. Also f*** Christianity.