One night when I was out drinking, I blacked out and woke up in a flat with about 5 guys, two of which were doing me at the time (one at the front, one at the back). As I realised what was going on I freaked out a bit and asked where my clothes were because I wanted to get dressed. I felt disgusting at the time and it made me depressed for a while. One of the guys text me about a week later and I told him to f off, and he replied that I wasn't complaining so much when he was f****** me from behind whilst I was sucking his mates c***, and for some reason this turned me on. Now I have fantasies about being taken by men and being dominated. I watch p*** of girls getting used and abused and get off to it. I've even stripped and touched myself on webcam to complete strangers.