I had Committed B********* as a Tween.

Well I don't know how to say this but I am a junior in High School with a dark past. As a child around the age of ten or eleven I was watching Doctor Phil and I was learning about p*** addiction on it and I got curious. So one day I was doing a project and I typed in "p***" on google. Well next thing you know I click on the first site and I am seeing all of these sexual images that were new to me at the time. Unfortunately I went on my computer at home the next few months and got addicted to p***. As I watched more p*** I became more open to gay and b********* p***. At this point I am a tween with hormones going through my body even though that is not an excuse and I wanted to experiment somehow. So I chose to basically "do things" with my two dogs around the age of 12. I highly regret it to this day and I did it also because I was often bullied and I was lonely and I did not even know it was illegal at the time. I consider myself fortunate that I stopped in January of 2009 and I regret that I did those things to this day. Fortunately puberty has stopped and I am a totally different person today then I was at the time. But I have had regrets every day since. I must say I am pretty happy. I have a beautiful girlfriend, I am in a military program, and I plan to become a police officer. Ironically, in the K-9 unit. (Just to get this clear. I HAVE NO ATTRACTION TO ANIMALS. I think it is sick that someone would do that but then realize I was that sick person.) But I just don't know what to do with myself. I believe in God and I feel like I can't get his forgiveness so I give up on religion. I know I can't make this a setback but I just want to help people and animals and those mistakes I made with my dogs has made me think I am a bad person every day since. I really regret these acts and watching p*** in the first place. Also, I feel like I can never be a pet-owner again because of these actions. I love animals and I would never hurt them after what I've done in my past. Just It is taking me a lot to post on this and I need help. Not because of sexual attraction. But to stop this guilt. I know I can't undo what I did but I just wish I could take it all back. :(

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  • God forgives and you must forgive yourself for your act .
    So don't turn away from God read your bible and you will know that God loves you but you must turn your life around and give your life to christ not to your flesh .

  • Was your dogs a****** tight? hmmm i guess humans arent tight enough.

  • Ive been in the same situation and regret it so bad. did you tell your girlfriend? I dont know if I should tell my bf.

  • You're never too broken, ashamed, or sinful for God. We're all sinners, and as long as you ask for his forgiveness, and truly believe and trust in Him, trust me, he'll forgive you. It's not hard. I'm a bad person too sometimes, but that doesn't mean God doesn't love me! God will always love you no matter what, remember that.

  • I id to and im so so sorry

  • Apostle Paul hated God and killed Christians, and yet God forgave and called him to be one of the 12 apostles. To say God can't forgive a confused and curious child at the age of 12 for doing something he, at the time, thought wasn't wrong? That'd be dumb, lmao. God has forgiven worse. Don't be so h****** yourself. You're legitimately sorry, right? Then you aren't a "horrible person", just a fellow human being who fell prey to sexual pressure!
    ..All I'm thinkin right now is ... did your dogs ever look at you the same after you did'em ... LMAO

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