This isnt very funny or interesting but here it is i guess:
f*** this. im slowly starting to hate everyone again. im trying everything i can to feel better but its just not working for me anymore. it used to be so easy for me to sty happy and now its like it doesnt even matter; im slipping. its so lonely. i like people i cant have and ive been doing it for years. im afraid ill never keep liking someone once i can have them. now i just wanna hook up. it feels like all my rocks and people i considered to be my role models are just tumbling before my eyes. im scared.