Its been 3 years now.. im 13 years old. when i was 10 i was raped by my brothers friend who was 14 at the time. i lost my virginity lost all my self esteem___ he apoligized a year later.. but i still cant help but cry myself to sleep some nights.. knowing i cant give my virginity away to someone i really love because it was taken away from me. everytime i try to tell the guys i date i was rape they only get the part of " oh s*** h had s** at 10 " " u is nasty ". they dont get that i didnt i was forced thats 2 different things. now ive been dating this dude . he understands tho i havent told him i was raped yet. i only told him i lost my virginity and im sorry i couldnt give it to him. i feel so horrible sometimes wonder why or wht i did to deserve that.