17 year old girl & addicted to p***
I've been secretly watching p*** since my early teens, perhaps even earlier. It is an addiction that I was initially disgusted of, but over time I've become so desensitized to it that it no longer bothers me.
I've always been a very sexual being; I'm very in tune with that side of myself. Ironically enough, I've never had s** before, or any other sort of experience that comes close. Believe it or not, I'm yet to have my first kiss.
I feel horribly caught in between two opposite worlds - one of naivety and childish innocence, and the other of ravenous l*** and intense craving. It's a very lonely place to be, and there's no one I feel comfortable explaining it to. Some of my friends actually seem repulsed by the idea of masturbation, while I do it several times a week (sometimes daily). I embrace it.
The sexual tension that has been building up for years is almost becoming too much to bear. I'm sick of stifling the passion; it takes effort, and there have been moments where my obsession with s** has almost dangerously reached the surface for others to see.
I honestly don't know what to do about it. I want to feel liberated, but I'm not the type to mess around with strangers.