I paid for s** today...I feel like s***
I thought that the experience would be great, some kind of fufillment and at least a temporary release from depression.
I feel the exact opposite.
I feel guilty for doing it, ashamed. The person I did it with obviously saw it as a business transaction and nothing more. You hear all these stories of women being trafficked and exploited for profit and although I was 'reassured' that everyone there was working willingly it still plays on my mind.
So yeah...I wish I hadnt have done it, It really only serves as yet more of a reminder that I will probably die alone and depressed.