My parents were part of a christian
My parents were part of a christian cult.
in this cult it was okay for adults to molest the children,
my sister and brother were molested, outraged i confronted my parents about it, who insist they knew nothing about it, and said that they would have never allowed it to happen in their "home"
i my sister is so amazing, so strong.
but someone times i feel angry, and then i start to question her version of events, because my parents cant think of when it could have occured.
what makes me most sad, and this thought brings me to tears within seconds (2 years after knowing)
is that i am more upset that my parents arn't my hero's anymore.
i used to love my person more than i loved myself.
now i feel like i can never love them as much anymore.
im sad that that pathetic thought has haunted me for so many years even though my sister still suffers living with so much pain and shame.
i hate god for allowing it to happen to her, why couldn't i carry the pain