What the h*** is wrong with me
I seem to be able to pick up and enjoy the smell and (really weird part) taste of blood!
i am not trying to say that i'm a vampire, h*** no! but for some reason i've been like this for a while now.
it started when i was going through a rough part of my life and i was constantly cutting my arms and not caring, but one day i realized that i needed to stop half way in the middle of making a deep gash in my arm, and my mom was knocking on my door asking me to come out, and being the r***** that i was i spilled and the blade made a really bad cut that started to bleed like crazy. so i wrapped it really fast and it was seeping out from beneath the the piece of cloth that i tore off my junk shirt so to keep it from seeping threw my shirt i quickly put my mouth on the cut and started to suck the oozing blood so my mom wouldn't see anything.
i felt like a complete piece of s*** after that when i realized that i was hurting my mom the one person who cared. but mostly because after that i couldn't stop thinking about blood, and when a kid in my shop class got cut on a cutting tool i started to feel drool start to dribble out of my mouth. i don't understand what it was that made me feel addicted to this but, now i can't stand next to some one who's bleeding otherwise i have this urge to start sucking on the wound like a leech.
am i alone out there or are there others like me who have this problem? or am i just a freak.