Had s** with my music teacher and regret it
I got invited for a dinner date with my music teacher after my lessons had ended. I am already living alone, and thought that free dinner would be nice. I never imagined that he'd have an agenda with me. He spent the evening giving me compliments, and getting me quite drunk on wine. When we were quite full he suggested that I'd bend over the table and let him have his way to show my gratitude for the free meal. At first I thought he was joking, but he kept insisting, telling me how hot I was and that I should give him something in return. I kept laughing of what I thought of as a naughty and harmless joke. Only when he pulled out his p**** did I realize that he was quite determined in having me, and I gave in to his blunt approaches after some further coaxing. He knew I was a virgin, something which seemed to turn him on further.
Even as I stood there bent over the table with my pants down at my ankles and showing him my naked butt, I regretted the whole thing, but I couldn't muster the courage to stop it. He placed his hands on my hips, and went through with a slow and lengthy intercourse with me that was both painful and embarrasing. Although he was gentle with his movements, he slapped my ass several times, and rubbed his thumb against my a*** calling me a s***. When I turned my head telling him I was not, he just laughed. Thanks for caring about the feelings of an insecure girl...Eventually he pressed hard against me and came inside me. (I was on the pill, as I anticipated that I'd have s** soon)
Afterwards he cleaned away the blood on my tighs, before escorting my sore butt to the bathroom where I tried to pee out his mess. I was convinced to give it another try, and he banged me in the exactly same position, less gentle and while drinking wine and listening to his favourite music using a remote. When he finally finished it was a relief, and I pulled on my pants and left. I'll never let myself be had that cheaply again.
I'm sitting here still sore down there, and with alot of regrets. It's not like I'll have to see him again if I don't want to, but I feel dirty and used. He must be laughing at how stupid I was to give in to him. And I'm afraid a future boyfriend might be upset, and that he might see me as a s***. I always was a "good" girl up until this point, but now that is kind of ruined. Should I get tested for std's just in case? And is there any advice how to deal with this emotional turmoil I'm going through?