The worse part about ending my affair, is that im trapped again in my sexless marriage. I long to be touched by my lover again, i know we had to end it, but I miss the s**!!
yet the thought of being intimate with my husband sickens me...its just been too long - too much resentment has built up. dammit i dont want to be celibate the rest of my life!! Im 45....i have a few good years left!