I'll do anything for you == a*** s**
I don't know if its fear of abandonment, low self esteem, or the girl truly is in love but there comes that magical point in a relationship when she tells you how much she loves you and will do anything for you, when she fears you may be losing interest in her. The point she's so eager to prove herself to you she lets you do anything to her, though she's never done a*** s** before, she won't quit and says she's determined to go all the way.
This is what makes or breaks the relationship for me cause for me there's nothing more beautiful than when a woman struggles through a*** s** to prove her self to her lover. Yes I'm sure its insecurity and selfishness on my part but the harder her struggle the more meaningful her sacrifice is. I don't usually go easy on her and do my best to challenge her tolerance for pain. I loved when my girlfriend's face winces and her teeth grit, and she clutches the sheets and tries to hide her face in the pillows.
My current submissive girlfriend is a cutter and has panic attacks when she thinks I'm abandoning her, so I allow her to prove her love. I know she is serious because I'll often bring her to tears and she actually will cry but never tells me to stop. I used to debate whether or not to stop but as time went on I became somewhat desensitized. She is bipolar and every now and then snaps at me and we have an understanding that when she snaps at me she should be prepared for a harsh a*** session where I will keep going hard and fast and will keep going even if she screams. She is clearly in agony but panics if I stay mad at her for long so she'll immediately offer her self to me so I can let out my frustration on her. She'll cry she'll scream but she'll accept it so that we can move on. Its this display of willingness and strength to handle it leads me to be affectionate with her after words. I've had submissive girlfriends before but thus current girlfriend is special.
Does any one else have a physically rough relatonship like this? I cant be alone.