Is aggressive s** rape if you don't say stop?
Went to meet someone just as a friend although we have had s** before, but he started to grope me aggressively, he was turned on and i tried to take his hands off me but he just got stronger and wouldn't stop, he asked 'why are you fighting it' but i didn't say anything. He then got his p**** out and without thinking i gave him oral s**, i didn't want to and i still don't understand why i did it. he then tried to lead me to have s** with him i said 'no i'm not on the pill anymore' and he said 'Oh please? just sit on it'. then eventually i gave in. he took of my clothes and started, throughout the whole time i didn't want to do it but i couldn't bring myself to say anything. i said 'it hurts' then he mumbled something but kept ******* me aggressively. i couldn't say the word 'stop' he carried on i felt like crying, he pulled my hair and said 'yeah who are you *******? tell me who your ******* you *****'. then we stopped. he started kissing me violently grabbing my neck and biting my lips i didn't know what to do so i kissed him back after just sitting there helplessly. he said things like 'whats wrong?' when i was cold after wards, but he continued to smile he said things like 'i couldn't help it you're irresistable' and 'your beautiful' i felt disgusting, and disgusted with myself i still feel sick 2 days later. I can't stop thinking about it but i don't know what to do i will never see him again i have blocked him on facebook and its unlikely he will be able to contact me. i have only told my closest friend. i didn't think this guy was capable of doing what he did, in the past i really cared for him but now i find him repulsive. what should i do?