I'm lying about how I feel to get s**
I'm 24, female and a virgin. I have serious anxiety issues and simply haven't had the guts to do it even though I've had the opportunity.
Anyways, I met a guy on a support website last year, we met twice and have become pretty close friends. I like and trust him. He's a really nice, good person, but in the past few months I've been coming off a bit strong with flirtations. Mind you, we basically only text and chat, so I don't feel uncomfortable saying more than I would were we talking or face to face.
I've told him that I want to have s**, but haven't mentioned that I want to do it with him. I fear, though, that if I have s** I'm going to lose interest in him. Like I will stop talking to him afterwards and he'll take it personally. He has some serious self-esteem issues... Honestly, even thought I think he's a good person, I find him boring and have little in common. I just want to have s** with him... =\
Is that horrible? He lives in the Northeast and I live in the South. I'm visiting a friend in the same city next week and I'm debating whether or not I should do it.