I hate getting older It sucks
I'm 51 years old and have all but given up on having s** anymore other than jerking to p*** on the internet. I've been married for 32 years and have not had s** with my wife or anyone for that matter in the last 6 years. She has really gotten old looking, wrinkled, drinks and smokes constantly. Her tiny b**** look like fried eggs on a plate and we have nothing in common anymore.Many people have thought she is 15-20 years older than me. She is 49 but looks 70. She really doesn't turn me on anymore at all. She an I are basically just room mates to save money on separate living arrangements. She has her bedroom and I mine.
What I would give to have one really good night of s** with a young person again. When you get older your brain doesn't change the way you think about s**, It's just your appearance and health that suffer. High blood pressure and colestoral. I look in the mirror and can't believe that's me any more. I'm not the ugliest man on the planet by any means. I' 6' 200lbs, and a little out of shape with a receding hair line but am not hideous by any means. I try to think and stay young. I like young music, I have tattoos, and piercings. Sort of biker looking but I gave up my bike a few years back. You still think about the feel, smell of a young girls body next to you. if anything you think of more deviant things, such as role playing fantasies, cuckolding,transgender,even rape fantasies as you get older, anything to get off. You find yourself needing more visual stimulation and more perverse thoughts than you did when you were young. Especially if you are lonely. I still have the urges to have s** all the time, but with younger women or transgender girls, but I'm not into men or boys. 18-30 year olds, not jail bait that is. I should be able to get someone to love me or at least spend some quality time with me, but I get nervous and tongue tied and ruin it around younger women. Because of my age and looks My lack of confidence turns them off cold. Just one absolutely unbridled night of debauchery is what I need.