Really f***** this up
As a single mother ive often made hard choices. Until about 5 months ago I did really well but I fell in love with a meth addict and he has almost completely destroyed my life. Ive done so many rotten things to my kids and friends and family for him. My dad was living with me and I kicked him out with nowhere to go. I have given all my time and attention to him instead of my kids. I smoke pot all the time and my kids know about it. I have lost friends over him. And he's stolen from me and beat me up a few times. I dont understand whats wrong with me. I just fought with my kid and kicked her out of the house over all this bullshit. I failed a bunch of my own classes and missed out on student teaching. My daughter is graduating soon and Im just a huge f****** wastoid of a person. I hate myself and if not for my youngest daughter im quite sure id kill myself, in part because she just told me I suck as a parent.