Just f*** it
Sometimes I just want to tell the world to f*** off. I had an event in the military that left me emotionally scarred. Every now and then I start thinking about it and just want to get away. I go to my den, close the door and cry. I know a grown man isn't supposed to cry, but I just can't help it. There is no rhyme or reason to it, it just happens. My coping methods are to get away from everyone and smoke. Noting illegal, but as many times as I have tried to quit, it seems like the only way to get my mind back to reality is to go off by myself and light up. My wife doesn't understand, and it seems like nobody else does either. So, I just want to tell everyone to just f*** off. I'm glad we have these anonymous sites where we can say any f****** thing we want without any repercussions. So, if you can appreciate a little ranting, great. But if you can't, then just f*** off.