Addicted to Giving B*******
I'm sure most guys will read this post and think "Hey what's wrong with this?" but honestly it feels like it's ruining my life.
I am completely addicted to sucking guys off. And I think now, it's like some guys just have radar and can tell this about me, because I get guys openly making passes about it to me all the time, and I almost always give in.
This week I gave b******* to 8 different men. One was a guy I'm seeing off and on, so that's normal. But then my boss at work, I feel like maybe he read an email or a text I sent or something, because one day as I was getting ready to go home (after everyone else had already) he called me into his office, closed the door, and then just unzipped his pants. He didn't say anything, he just looked at me, expecting me to go down on him. And I admit, I didn't say a word, I just sank down on my knees and took his c*** in my mouth. Now he has me blow him at least twice a week, sometimes more. Sure it's hot, but I feel so weak and manipulable.
The 3rd guy this week was a guy I met on Tinder. I don't know why I get on there, because inevitably I will meet up with a guy and end up sucking his c***. This guy and I met in the park, I meant to just smoke with him and maybe make out, but sure enough within 10 minutes I was on my knees gulping down his c**. He was rough with me and pulled my hair and made me gag, and again it was hot, but like I should have some willpower shouldn't I? What if he was someone scary?
The 4th guy I blew this week was a friend. He was sad because his girlfriend had broken up with him, and we hung out so he could talk about it. I meant to just make him feel better platonically, but after he cried and hugged and we talked at some point I just offered to make him feel better, and put my hand on his thigh. I realize I totally instigated this one, and I enjoyed it - he hadn't come in a few weeks so I swallowed a lot. But now I'm worried about our friendship.
The 5th guy, this is the worst, it was the guy who towed my car home when it broke down. This was another one that I feel like just could read me, and even the moment he started hooking my car to the tow truck and I caught him checking me out, I knew - I knew in my stomach that I was going to end up blowing him. Sure enough, an hour later we're at my house and I'm sucking him off in the front seat of his tow truck.
The 6th guy this week was a guy I met at the bar. I wasn't even super attracted to him, but he flirted with me and one thing led to another and I was on my knees in the men's restroom, sucking his c***. Then #7, this one is the most humiliating, it was just some other guy who came in to use the bathroom. Guy #6 had just left, and I was in the stall, getting toilet paper to clean the c** off my face, and then I look up and see this stranger there. And we don't say anything, he just comes into the stall and I obediently get on my knees and take his c*** into my mouth and start sucking. He added his load to my face and I ended up cleaning two loads off instead of one.
The last one, #8, and I know this will sound funny, but it is my therapist. I went to him for this exact problem, to talk about why I am so addicted to sucking c***. And we still talk about it and try to find the cause... but every week I end up sucking him off too. He can recharge quickly so sometimes by the end of the therapy session I suck him off a 2nd time.
I swear I have a problem. I really do love doing it. I just wish I wasn't such an easy target, and had more self control.