I'm normal.. until I'm h****....:s
OK so I've spent a lot of time trying to figure myself out, but I feel I need outside output.
OK so when I'm not h**** I am good person,I'm funny, caring and always thinking twice before doing anything stupid. But bam once I'm h**** my sense of right and wrong goes totally out the window.
Here's an example: when I'm h**** I can't stop thinking about and seeking out strange older men for unprotected s**. Its like my brain has only one objective and that's to get my fix of c** pumped into my p****. Its like I get really high from it, but when its all over I feel dirty and bad that I let it happen again and I swear off all sexy time stuff and then my h**** over powers me again and bam I have a new d*** pumping me full yet again. I f****** love it but I hate it at the same time.(yes I get checked and yes I'm clean)
When I'm h**** all I want is the taboo and do all the things I'm not supposed to...
I need help with this lol sigh
Signed insanely h**** and confused in central alberta