I had a sports injury and had to go to a massage therapist for my low back.
The first time I went it was okay but the clothes I wore didn't let him access my injury well.
The next time I went I wore jogging pants and when I was face down on the table and he pulled my pants down to access that area it made my heart race.
As he kneaded my back and butt I admit I was a little squirmy and embarrassed of my movements.
The next time I went he asked if I'd be comfortable in a (hospital) gown. I said okay and nervously undressed and put it on.
When I got face down he adjusted the electric table so I was bent slightly at the waste.
He straddled my legs so he could access that area.
As he applied the warm oil I could feel it running between my cheeks.
I'll admit I was aroused by this feeling.
He had me completely exposed back there. I felt vulnerable, and I liked it.
He rubbed my back and ass and to my embarrassment I'm sure I squirmed and some involuntary moans may have come out.
Afterward he wiped up the oil running one hand close to my crack. He left the paper towels for me to clean up with. I went home and masterbated.
I'm scared to go back, not of him, but of what I might allow to happen.
should I go back?
how far should I let it go?