Guilty selfish l***
I am a single man in my late fourties. I have not had s** for a few years. There is a woman at work who is divorcing her husband. They have sold their house.
She is going through a very tough time emotionally and has tears in her eyes constantly. I Have known her for many years and never thought of her sexually simply because she was not on the market and I had a girlfriend for much of the time I have known her.
For many reasons I do not see a permanent relationship happening between us. But I have been fantsizing about her a lot. I don't want to ruin our friendship, mislead her or cause her pain. She is a wonderul person, good worker, and mother.
She often asks for a hug and has tears in her eyes. I apologized " I am sorry I bumped into you" she replied, almost sadly as she looked down, " That's okay you can bump into me".
Perhaps I imagine too much. I want to make love to her so hard even though she is an emotional mess. I want hump, kiss and lick her while tears stroll down her sweet face. Then I want to hold her all night long. I am trying to justify my l*** even though a relationship is not what I want, and in her despair she may want a place to land. Apprently her husband is devastated. She is so beautiful. Nothing will,likely happen, maybe it is just my fantasy, but I wonder if I pushed for it.