What the h*** happened
I honestly don't know.
I met this guy 4 years ago and just became romantically interested in him 2 years ago. Turns out, he was too. A few months ago he asked me out, nearly engagement-style. I accepted (no, nothing strange or disgusting about the relationship, he's 17, I'm 16, classic teenage 'love'.). I was so happy, like a big piece of my heart that was lost was replaced (family issues).
And so, he asked me out on a date. His and my first date. "Whatever restraunt you want." He told me. I picked iHop as I absolutely love that place, and it was settled. A few days later and we were eating at my favorite place. Mid-way through the date I had to use the bathroom and did so (important). Everything was unbelievably blissful up until that point.
Skip about 20 minutes in, I felt... Weird and rather tired. I completely blew it off and went on with the date. I don't remember anything after that save for the next night when I'm sleeping in my room. I had no idea what happened.
I still don't, but I'm fearing the worst. I've been throwing up every day since a few days after that and I haven't had my period in two months, not a single day. I've been eating like CRAZY and I've barely gained a pound. Not to mention I'm failing my grades due to immense lack of sleep.
I've had thoughts about what happened and... Asked my was-then boyfriend. He said he had no idea what happened and has practically alienated me. He even denied the date until I showed him the bracelet he gave me. Now we're complete strangers and he broke up with me via text. I felt so shabby and useless. Still do.
I stole one of my mom's pregnancy test and it shows positive. I can't tell anyone because I have no idea what happened my own damn self! I had such high hopes in life and my parents have demonized abortion over and over and I'm just so scared. I've literally not felt this afraid... Ever.
I need help so bad yet if I tell anyone I'm afraid of the backlash. Please...