Friendship, l***, love and death
Over 20 years ago I had a sexual relationship with my friends wife after they broke up. It was a short fling, she used me and seduced me for revenge on his cheating. Reguardless, I fell in love with her. Years later they got back together and now he has a fatal disease. In the years following our sexual fling I wanted her bad, not just for s** I wanted her for my girl but as long as they were happy I did not approach her for anything, especially anything sexual. A few years back she privately brought our sexual relationship up to me. She said she was sorry for using me, I said it was ok and was grateful she shared her s** with me. Then I said I'd love to have s** with you again someday. She said as long as he's in her life she's not going to do it but if anything does happen she would love to have s** with me again, we had some very steamy s** together for almost a year. We left it at that and trying to be respectful I never bring it up ever. Now I feel like I'm being disloyal again to him because I'm l****** for his wife. I see he's not going to be alive for long and I see his death as an opportunity to finally get her in my life. I'm no longer married and all I can think of is a future with her after he passes on, there is no guarantee that will happen. I guess I'm a real creep for wanting her so bad but she was always a woman of my dreams and I can't help wanting her in my life.