Good husband, dad... h**** side uncontrollable.
I love my wife, and my three kids. I'm a teacher, who loves his students (if not the job all of the time). I don't want to do anything to endanger this life. I am not in a sexless marriage. Far from it. My wife is still hot, and we have great s**. We can share fantasies together of threesomes, and get off watching arty p***. She is adventurous sexually, and giving. She used to be a bit more so. While never swingers, we use to confess to each other who else in our lives made us hot. Then we would roleplay out threesomes with them. It was so f****** hot. Age and time have cooled this part of our s** life. The nature of three children mean we are practically never alone. When we are, she gets jealous of my crushed rather than owns them. Still, I have a much better s** life than anyone I know. Yet I'm compelled, often to sexual experiences then test the envelope. I've been going to strip clubs whenever I can escape, and have graduated from watching to lap dances (they never get me off... not even hard). I, regularly, spend time on s** chat websites. I pretend to be her, because it gets me more attention. I've put "her" in these sites into all kinds of degrading situations. I've role-played selling her ass to the highest bidder. Lost her in a fictional poker game. I've role-played her being raped... I'm worried I'm sick.