I am addictied to giving b*******
First of all this is not a s** story or fantasy story. It is a true accounting of my s** life in the last 3 years or so and I am trying to figure it out. In the last 3 years I have been slowly becoming obsessed with giving b*******. I gave my first b****** when I was about 5 or 6 I know that's really young but it just happened. The boy kept asking me and I finally gave in and did it. What surprised me is that I instantly LOVED it. I could just sense his total pleasure and release of his body to my mouth. There were many other boys after that but I won't get into that here. It was really exhilarating. Fast forward 30 years. After my childhood I had a pretty normal s** life I think. Married, faithful never dated or had many s** partners.
Then BAM the last few years all I can think about is sucking c***. I mean all the time every day. I am finally to the point where I am hooking up with guys and giving them b******* whenever they want. I currently have two guys that I gave my cell number to who text me a couple of times a week each. One guy likes shooting video of me sucking his c***. In fact I gave one guy a b****** just this morning. The problem is the more I do it the more I want to do it and the more c**** I want to suck. I don't want a relationship with the guy and I don't even have to find him attractive. It's just his c*** I want. I thought that if I found one guy who would have me suck his d*** a few times a week that would be enough but I don't think it is. The question is: Am I become a s**/b****** addict? This posting is for real and I would appreciate gentle advice from thoughtful people.