I don't know what to do
I'm a man in my forties who has this weird belief that my girlfriend who died nine years ago is waiting for me in a higher plane, and so I've chosen to be faithful to her while down here. My friends and family don't mention my celibacy to me, but I know they wonder about never seeing me with anyone (they sort of know about my deceased girlfriend, but not really...long story). I think they see me as being a bit eccentric, and so they don't push for answers. Or maybe they think I sleep around and that I've chosen not to introduce them to my short-term relationships. I'm humble and down to earth, but the way women look at me tells me that I'm very attractive. The problem I'm having is that women find me so attractive that many of them pretty much throw themselves at me and I hate that they either think I'm an idiot who doesn't know how to read obvious flirting signals, or that I don't find them attractive. It probably sounds like I'm bragging more than anything, but this is a real problem; I see the hurt in their eyes and it kills me. I've explained myself a couple of times to women I see regularly (a cashier and a neighbour), but it would be weird to start explaining to strangers all the time why I'm not responding to their advances. The only solution I see is to wear a wedding ring, but I hate wearing jewelry, and then I would have to explain my weird situation to my family and friends. Advice or any sort of feedback would be very much appreciated, but it's mostly about putting it out there since I don't really want to discuss it with people close to me.