Am I going to h***??!

Okay, so it was halloween. My brother and i invited our boyfriend and girlfriend over to drink with us. Im adopted and gay and I'm 16. My older brother Christian is 17and straight. Any ways, we had our girlfriend and boyfriends over. We messed around and watched scary movies. Nightmare on Elm street to be exact, the newer one. But jumping to the point, we got to making out. In the living room, my BF and I were on the couch, my brother and his GF were on the floor. I had a strong buzz going so i was out of it. His GF said something to Christian that made him laugh and stare at me. He called my BF over to him, i sat there like a moron. My boyfriend looked back at me and smiled, so i asked what was so funny. My BF sat down next to me and asked me something really weird. He said, "Would you f*** your brother for me?". Um, no, absolutely not. I knew it was wrong, but then my brother came to me and said "I know its weird bro, but Alyssa promised to f*** me whenever i wanted". That s*** is not convincing me. But what didn't help was the fact that i was starting to get drunk, giggly like. Long story short, he f***** me. BUT! don't you dare judge me, i was drunk and he was too. We were dumb, my BF took a pic of it. I know i know, it was bad its very bad. I just want to know, am i going to h*** for this. I believe in God and what not, and i really don't wanna go to h*** forever. The reason why i ask you random people, is cause i don't wanna bring this up with my parents. But on the other hand, I'm adopted if that helps. I know incest is not acceptable, but in this case, is it? I just need some clarity on this s***. Cause i really need to know if i need to pray for what i did and beg for forgiveness. Today is Nov, 2, 2015.

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  • If u R "gay" (gay is a word ppl made up 2 catergorise wot dey felt needed 2 B categorised dats all) Ben "gay" is NOT a sin & if u base Ben "gay" as a sin Bcause of religion just rememBr something so many ppl R 2 brainwashed 2 realise but religion is completely MAN made. Ppl confuse religion & spirituality. There R hundreds of religions & each religion is simply based on some1 elses experiences through their personal spirituality & ppl for some reason follow this making it a religion... why follow some1 elses experience & Bliefs? Forget wot u have Ben tawt, pretend u wer born & u wer never introduced 2 any religion. Find urself, Blieve wot ur heart Blieves, & seek ur own Spirituality Bcause Spirituality is a personal venture, a personal relationship wit u & who u Blieve is ur creator & ALL UR ANSWRS will B answerd so u dont have 2 ask odas if wot u did / doing / going 2 do is a SIN - Bcause u will just receive every1 elses VIEW & BLIEFS which dey probably didnt find due 2 their personal SPIRITUALITY but more due 2 Ben tawt dat through their religion. Not saying Ben part of religion is wrong, no way, i could B wrong, but my opinion & advise for u is dat of my own wen i say..... why follow wot oda ppl Blieve, follow rules which oda ppl make, instead of having a relationship wit ur creator.B urself - never change 2 conform 2 anything but wot u R & how u wer born. Live u life simply Doing no harm 2 odas & no harm 2 urself, Luv & respect ppl, never judge, never shun any1 Bcause of a lack of underst&ing, dont follow ppl ever, walk in ur own shoes & walk holding ur head up high & asking ur creator 2 guide u & show u the right way for U. Lastly, walk wit ur creator & u will find ur way - ur creator, who ever u feel it may B, seriously did not create u wit the thought of sitting above & giggling & expecting u 2 live a life & Ben some1 different 2 how u wer made & the life u wer meant 2 live. Trust in urself - u have the answrs inside, an emotion dat never lies....

  • Man shall not lay with man for this is a sin. having s** with your adopted brother isn't a sin. having s** with another person as the same gender is a sin.

  • Kill yourself

  • Nobody goes to H*** for a sin they committed. You only get there by rejecting Jesus as your savior. Read the Book of John in the New Testament. Now, there can be EARTHLY consequences for sin, that's a different story. The fact that you feel guilty for what you did is actually a very good sign. Read John, speak to clergy and make it right between you and God.

  • Thank you all so much. For the whole clarification. Ill try and catch up on the reading of Gods scriptures. Its Nov 4 now. My bro and i haven't mentioned what happened. I think he feels guilty too. Ill tell him to read up too and try to talk with him about it. LOL, i got a uncomfortable conversation with him tonight. And guy that asked me if he was better than my BF. I'm sorry but i don't think that is a good thing to talk about or even think about. But again to all of you. Thanks for the help on this situation. So much.

  • Please google the New Testament in your phone and read and see that Jesus forgives any sin; you'd have peace.

  • You said you are adopted so it is not incest at all, it's all in ur head feeling like family to each other but it's not incest... even if u were related by blood.. it's not wrong if u enjoyed it, only wrong if u didn't want it... but if the drunk u let it happen then that's a whole other story...

  • S** t happens man. Tbh your bro already had thoughts of fu cking you. Why not enjoy it. Was he a better fuc k than your bf? Also shame on your bf for taking a picture. If anythjng all of them should have joined in and have fun.


    19And hereby we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure our hearts before him. 20For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things. 21Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God. 1 John 3

  • Bother to read the scriptures beloved:

    19 “There was a certain rich man,” Jesus said, “who was splendidly clothed and lived each day in mirth and luxury. 20 One day Lazarus, a diseased beggar, was laid at his door. 21 As he lay there longing for scraps from the rich man’s table, the dogs would come and lick his open sores. 22 Finally the beggar died and was carried by the angels to be with Abraham in the place of the righteous dead.[c] The rich man also died and was buried, 23 and his soul went into h***.[d] There, in torment, he saw Lazarus in the far distance with Abraham.

    24 “‘Father Abraham,’ he shouted, ‘have some pity! Send Lazarus over here if only to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, for I am in anguish in these flames.’

    25 “But Abraham said to him, ‘Son, remember that during your lifetime you had everything you wanted, and Lazarus had nothing. So now he is here being comforted and you are in anguish. 26 And besides, there is a great chasm separating us, and anyone wanting to come to you from here is stopped at its edge; and no one over there can cross to us.’

    27 “Then the rich man said, ‘O Father Abraham, then please send him to my father’s home— 28 for I have five brothers—to warn them about this place of torment lest they come here when they die.’

    29 “But Abraham said, ‘The Scriptures have warned them again and again. Your brothers can read them any time they want to.’

    30 “The rich man replied, ‘No, Father Abraham, they won’t bother to read them. But if someone is sent to them from the dead, then they will turn from their sins.’

    31 “But Abraham said, ‘If they won’t listen to Moses and the prophets, they won’t listen even though someone rises from the dead.’”[e] LUKE 16

  • Let's pray: Jesus, I am sorry for this evil and all the evils I have done. Lord be merciful to me a sinner; come and be my Lord and savior. Help me to read your word daily. thanks.

  • Nice to know that you believe in God and believe in h***; I do and really, they are real. The New Testament (google it and read it in you phone or tablet) has all the answers we need to know about this life. It is the manual for this life. It helped me to know a lot about myself and how I should relate with God my maker. I learnt from it that that there is always forgiveness as long as we are in this body and feel remorseful about what we have done. I read it often, daily and I am just fine.

  • I read your narration with deep sense of empathy. A lot of folks have had enough confusion from a "confused world" to last for a life time! Lack of "personal identity" can bore oneself sick even to having suicide thoughts . Have I once considered suicide in my life? Yes .. . and indeed, many folks you see that walk the streets are full of challenges and pains that were inflicted or innate. In my own case, in my teens like you, I thought I will not be able to achieve anything because I was abused as a child , lived in a home that always felt like an explosive device was about to ignite. I struggled with these feelings and tried to fill the void via alcohol and "street smokes" & s**. I found fake boldness that was transient. I envied and wanted to be like others. and I began to steal.

    Well, I am an adult now, well educated, employed, married, had kids, drug/alcohol/smoke free, and really free from all my demons. How? Yes, I know that this will be the question in your heart. It sounded foolish and dreamlike but it was real. Someone gave me a copy of "New Testament and Psalms and proverbs"; a little blue covered book which could fit into my pocket. I began to read it from "The Gospel of John" like he advised me. I love reading and it made sense. Well, I may not be able to tell you all that happened to me but I discovered that as I read it daily, I began to be attracted to and talk to the main character in the story; Jesus and it seemed like an old self of mine was dropping off daily. At some point , I was shocked when I was out with my friends and realized that I hadn't touched alcohol in the past 2 weeks! And the stranger thing was that alcohol lost its appeal to me. In fact, it disgusted me. My friends told me that they will "give me just three months" and I will drink myself to stupor like before. well it has been years and I keep getting better; more pleasant than the person I ever tried to be.


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