Am I going to h***??!
Okay, so it was halloween. My brother and i invited our boyfriend and girlfriend over to drink with us. Im adopted and gay and I'm 16. My older brother Christian is 17and straight. Any ways, we had our girlfriend and boyfriends over. We messed around and watched scary movies. Nightmare on Elm street to be exact, the newer one. But jumping to the point, we got to making out. In the living room, my BF and I were on the couch, my brother and his GF were on the floor. I had a strong buzz going so i was out of it. His GF said something to Christian that made him laugh and stare at me. He called my BF over to him, i sat there like a moron. My boyfriend looked back at me and smiled, so i asked what was so funny. My BF sat down next to me and asked me something really weird. He said, "Would you f*** your brother for me?". Um, no, absolutely not. I knew it was wrong, but then my brother came to me and said "I know its weird bro, but Alyssa promised to f*** me whenever i wanted". That s*** is not convincing me. But what didn't help was the fact that i was starting to get drunk, giggly like. Long story short, he f***** me. BUT! don't you dare judge me, i was drunk and he was too. We were dumb, my BF took a pic of it. I know i know, it was bad its very bad. I just want to know, am i going to h*** for this. I believe in God and what not, and i really don't wanna go to h*** forever. The reason why i ask you random people, is cause i don't wanna bring this up with my parents. But on the other hand, I'm adopted if that helps. I know incest is not acceptable, but in this case, is it? I just need some clarity on this s***. Cause i really need to know if i need to pray for what i did and beg for forgiveness. Today is Nov, 2, 2015.