My cousin raped me

When I was 7, I first met my cousin, he was 11, which was 4 years older than me. He was already strong at that age, he went to the gym even though he was underage by a year to even go. He looked like one of those strong men on TV, he had green eyes, which I loved, because I have always liked guys with green eyes since I was young. I still do now, and he had black hair. Although a lot of girls his age liked him and still do he always wanted to hang out with me or he gave me dirty looks, I used to be uncomfortable hanging out with him until I turned 12.

My b****** are big an E cup now, and he always stared at them. He told me I had the perfect hourglass figure, but I just took it as a joke. I didn't want take it awkwardly and ruin any of our what I wanted to be good moments.

One day, we were at a water playgrounds, whatever it's called, I dressed in a pink bikini, and he kept looking at me, I finally asked him, "Why are you looking at me like that?" Although I didn't know it, I was blushing, and he told me I looked cute when I was blushing and I wanted to leave, but my mom made him do it. He told me to sit by him on this small-booth-like-thing it's hard to describe. And of course I did it.

I gasped when I felt his hands on my thighs. I found myself starting to like his touch as he was getting closer, and closer to my pivate area but I knew it was wrong so I swiped his hand away. I attempted to get up and go inside the pool, which was close enough for him to watch me from there, and he smacked me on my rear, causing me to yelp out. I threatened to tell my mom, but he didn't seem to care.

He touched me more and eventually got to my private area. I bit my lip from moaning, and when he tried to kiss me, I pushed him away. I didn't want him to be my first kiss. I started doing more research on incest when I got home on that day, and once I realized how far it could go, I didn't want him to even try anything.

A year later, I hadn't seen him after that, and I had forgot everything that had happened. But my aunt and uncle moved across the street from us. When I saw him, he had gotten even more attractive to me. I couldn't stop staring at him. Apparently, he had noticed because he said "See something you like?" And looked at me seductively. I liked everything about him, his arrogant but playful personality, and his husky voice. But I never wanted it to come to this point.

I think that I'm sort of in love with him, but I didn't want to do anything containing incest. Anyway, one day, I was sleeping over at his house because his parents and my parents went out on a double-date, it wasn't at night, it was going to last from morning to night. I was going to have my friends over for a sleepover, but he said no, and he tooked my phone away so I couldn't call them to tell them to come anyway.

My mom and dad had already bought things for the sleep over, like nail polish, junk food ect. And then I came up with a really bad idea, that I deeply regret. I wrestled with him over my phone. And suddenly, we ended up in an awkward position. I think it's called a 69 or something, it's a sexual position, that's all I know.

He slid down my tights (I was wearing them for pj's) and started doing you know what to my private area. I was very shocked and tried to move away but he held my thighs tightly in place. I kept struggling, but eventually I gave up and he stopped doing it once I came, I thought he would stop, but he put me on top of him and took off all of my clothes.

He made out with me, and I didn't want to struggle anymore, I was to exhausted from struggling before. It hurt really bad, but after a while I got used to it, and he did it more until our parents came back. My mom noticed I was acting very weird but I did anything not to tell her, I didn't want to talk about it and make her worried about me, I just hoped that this would blow over in a week or two, but I can't stop thinking about it.

What should I do now?


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  • The same thing happened to me 1 week ago, I'm 13 and he's 20. He got me drunk by saying "Come on just, one more!" Then things happened. He lived in the middle of no where so I could scream as loud as I could and no one would hear. The worst part was I was staying with him for 1 week just the two of us...It happened so much.

  • Sorry

  • You should tell your parents parents were put on earth to help you

  • Hi had a similar experience. I was raped by my cousin, who I liked a lot (may be in love with him), when I was 11. He raped me while I was sleeping multiple times. I didn't know who was s******* me until a couple months later. I discovered it was the cousin I liked and the reality is bittersweet. I personally think you should talk to your cousin about it first if you haven't already. Let him know that you didn't appreciate what he did even though you do like him a lot. And then if he understands and respects that of you, then you can take it to your parents or just one of them that you trust and confess. If confessing makes you feel better then it's best to do it. Also you should bring your cousin with you so that he can share the guilt. And if you are going to confess tell the whole story of you liking him and him liking you and that you may be in love with him. My situation is a bit different. My cousin didn't realize that I was somewhat conscious of the molestation. I ended up being either completely offended by s** and then can't get enough of it. It's some weird paradigm that I can't shake off. He is extremely ashamed of what he did because he was 17 at the time, liked me and took advantage of me. He is now in prison and we haven't mentioned it to anyone, I want to tell my dad to get this out of my system and put the past behind me but he doesn't even want to talk about the negative impact the situation caused me. So this is really tough for me anyway. Don't be afraid to tell, you have the right to be heard.

  • Yea tell

  • Clearly this is some disgusting pedophile writing post or an absolute r*****; you should be ashamed of yourself- I was raped from 6-16 by my cousin and I didn't bite my lip and moan or look up insest I was embarrassed scared and alone. This is so shameful you had size E b****** and an hourglass figure and flame to be a child who knows that s*** as a child. I'm now 34 and still can't think about my childhood I want so badly to tell my mother who I am very close to what J did to me but I know it will kill her especially since J and my mom are close. This is very sad I can't believe you wrote this garbage and if by .00005% this is truth you need to tell both you parents and the police because it's going to haunt you for the rest of your life and affect everything from, trust, dates lovers friends and everyday interactions

  • Let him f*** the s*** out u

  • Tell the parent you think would believe you more my cousin would do it every holiday my cousins know he likes me though we stopped going there so it stopped

  • Best thing I would would do is tell the police and send that's f***** to prison.

  • U should enjoy it..

  • Tell your parents and report it to the police... he needs some kinda mental health treatment. And you should go to therapy or a 12 step program. What he did was sick but healing will happen trust me. It may take a long time, but it will happen.

    Good luck and God bless.

  • Write a book this would be good !!

  • Let him put that shlong inside you. You may enjoy it.

  • That is sick

  • Your a sick, sick f***.

  • U need to tell the police or someone about cos what he did was wrong. if he did that to u then he could do it to any woman in the future now that he experienced raping someone already.

  • It was so messed up what he did to you. I'm so sorry this happened. You need to tell your parents so he can never do this again to you or anyone else.

  • Hey it's not right what he did. You need to tell someone. You were raped and no one deserves that. You didn't want that and that makes it rape. He shouldn't of ever done that. Tell someone. Tell your parents so that they can get him put away. He's a horrible person for doing that to you.

  • Let him f*** you

  • You should have told your parents. What are you some kind of a s***? You were probably asking for it. Maybe your Mom loved that kid like a son. Did you every think about someone else's feelings? Keep your "personal business" of the internet!!!!!! What would Gramie think? ;)

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