F*** THIS FEELING
I'm scared to death right now nobody really understands my situation or what I feel. I'm scared because I'm scared to have oral cancer . It's all little symptoms feelings emotions of knowing maybe yes maybe no I'm scared. My gf doesn't understand me. She acts as if nothing is okay she loves me but t I feel it's not real. I'm good looking but I'm not the type to only take advantage I want real. Real life real love real passion real emotions and no bullshit!! Lately I've been stressed over the top! I'm an ex boxer. Ex athlete. There was a point when I left my passions for my family and gf that's not love I miss every bit of it that it destroys me inside that was my happy but now my worry is oral cancer lord please be lord willin and love me unconditionally .