Want my BFF's brother to f*** me like no tomorrow
Raised as siblings with bff and her family. Went to a concert several weeks ago. It was overcrowded and ppl stood almost on each other. I grinded on my bff's brother behind me, unintentionally at first. But after I felt his b****, I did it on purpose. It turned me on, as I have always found him sexually attractive. While I am not satisfied about my looks and often feel insecure, my curves are one thing that I really like about myself. I wore a short, tight dress that night and kept grinding, pushing my backside against his crotch for almost 3 hours. I wanted to feel it and wanted him to notice that I was not doing it accidentally, and notice it he did. While he was wary at first, trying to get away from me, it changed quickly as I turned around and stared several times at him. He stopped resisting and pushed his b**** against me, almost feeling it between cheeks. He started touching my thighs and ass with his hands, stroking over my legs and occasionally under my dress. I made eye contact with him several times and it was clear that he wanted me as much as I wanted him.
Ever since that night, I want to be his l*** object. I want him to f*** me hard. I grew up with him, as siblings almost. People consider us sister and brother. His sister is my best friend, my brother is his best friend. But I want him to ravage me. Use me. I want him not to hold back and do everything to me that he wanted to do with a girl in terms of s**. I want him to choke me and spit in my mouth while he's on top of me, f****** me. I want to feel that b**** I felt that night in all of my holes. I want him to force his c*** in my troath, slap and shame me while doing so. I want to be his slave. That's how much I want to have s** with him. It drives me insane. I think about it everyday, I hint to it while on Whatsapp or at home. I bend over to pick things up in front of him. I stand in front of him while he sits so he can look at my body. I want to feel wanted, objectified by him. I wear dresses making my thong lines visible so it will turn him on. I'm hoping one day he will just lift it up and f*** me from behind. I knock on the door while he's showering, walk into his room without knocking hoping to catch him masturbating. If I manage to do so, I will be with my lips around his c*** before he can even say a word.
But he's been wary ever since that night. Like it was all only for that moment and like it never took place.
What should I do? I really want it... Please give me advice.